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Wednesday, March 15, 2006

Wed, 15 Mar 2006 16:24:50 GMT

: Breakthrough :

This week's been really really hectic for me personally. School works' been pilling up since I came back from Australia. Family has been really miserable lately, problems here and there...parents getting so stressed up with their work. And because of the stressfulness, they tend to get very bad tempered when they are at home so that's the cause of misery in the house. Sometimes I just feel like getting out of home for awhile. This week, I just wished God can just struck me dead and bring me to heaven to be with Him. Getting out of this stressful and hectic world would be the greatest thing!

But, bad times always lie on the journey of our lives. Its through bad times that God sharpens and strengthens the faith of His children. Through bad times, we began to grow, and to learn not to fall into the same mistake again. In life, there's not short cuts...God wants us to go to the highest mountains and the deepest valley to reach our destination. Just picture yourself jungle tracking, and there are two ways for you to choose. First one would be the easy way, just walk another few more kilometers to reach your destination. But the second one gotta be a tougher one, you gotta do hiking up to the hill, or other stuffs to reach your destination. Which one would you choose? The first one, we just gotta walk the same track for another few more kilometers, that's it. But the second one would be a greater experience, by doing more and tougher works, though its hard at first but get to enjoy better views and weather on the hill. So through bad times, we know that God is working in our lives! God is bringing us for hiking, a tougher way! Instead of walking the same track, it can be pretty boring and get nothing in the end. God is bringing us the tougher way, preparing us for good views in the later part of life! Bringing glory to His name! So whenever you think life's so meaningless or life's so hard or anything, think of the later part of the journey! See what God has prepared for us!

It was the second last day of Chinese New Year - Chor 14. My family and other relatives met up at Klang for seafood. When we left our house, quarrelling started in the car...sorry, not going into details. So I began to pray desperately to God, I told Him " Lord, please restore the relationship in my family; help my parents, open doors for them; give me a sign of You Lord! ". That was a short part of my prayer, hehe. On the later part of the journey, everyone kept quiet in the car...and suddenly there's this car passed by me. On the car, there's this sticker that has the word ' Breakthrough ' on it, I guess all of you've seen it before. I've seen it many times, but this time was different...the moment I saw it, I felt something. I felt like it was God that's talking to me, so I began to give thanks to Him. God has shown me what I'm hiking for in life, there's ' Breakthrough ' waiting for me on the hill top. So hiking is like bad times in life, but after the hiking...there's always good views and good things waiting for us on the hill top. Even Jesus gone through sufferings, mockeries, wipping, and crucifixion before He was resurrected on the third day! So Whenever we go through bad times, think of what's waiting for us on the hill top. God has marvelous plans for each of us, and bad times are God's sharpeners to sharpen us!

Psalm 58:11- Then men will say, "Surely the righteous still are rewarded; surely there is a God who judges the earth."

Thursday, February 16, 2006

Thu, 16 Feb 2006 18:43:20 GMT

Whuuu...Its been a long time since I last updated my blog, all because of my laziness. Aihss... Well, God has been really good to me for the past few weeks...there's just so much to share about what God has done just for the past few weeks. Its Friday, February 17th, 2:45a.m now....and a few hours later, I'll be heading to KLIA to catch my 9:30a.m flight to Perth, Australia for one week! I'm just praying and hoping that God would use this one week trip to build a stronger relationship in my family! Before leaving for Australia, just wanna share with you how did my Chinese New Year went la! hehe...

This year's Cny has been a quiet one for me. Maybe its because my mum and other relatives were in Taiwan during the beginning of the Cny to attend my cousin's wedding. Me, my dad, bro, and sis had McDonalds for reunion dinner after a movie! Haha, can you believe that? I spent most of my Cny with my family and relatives la, and also most of the time sleeping and eating. As a result, I gained weight again. Aihss... That's what I dislike about Cny, enjoy first but pay the price later... This year's ang pao! I thought it would probably be lesser than the previous years because we didn't do much of visitings this year, and not much people came visiting too. But it turn out to be the most! After so many years! Haha, wanna thank God for all these blessings la!

On the 5th day of Cny which is known as " chor 5 " in mandarin...I spent a 4 hrs trip to Genting Highlands with my friends. We left K.L at about 10 sth p.m and reached Genting Highlands almost 12 a.m. It was fun though, even though it was just a short while but the fellowship among us was just great! The climate in Genting Highlands was awesome! I'm lovin it!

Here are some pictures taken during Cny and Genting Highlands

While waiting for my family to get themselves ready to leave the house.

Haha, was getting bored and nothing better to do.

Super blur look.

That night was unusually foggy.

Haha, I just love foggy pictures! B.e.a.utiful!

Jason and Kong : Matt!! No!! Please Don't take your life by jumping into the fish pond.

Vernon : Aihsss... Kids nowadays....

Alex and Jm

That's all for this time people! Look at our faces, we're all tired! So see ya again...

Tuesday, January 31, 2006

Tue, 31 Jan 2006 19:23:14 GMT

Hey, here's a rap? poem? I think its more like a reminder of what Jesus Christ has done for you and me. He has died for all our sins, saving us from the fire of hell! Do spend one or two minutes reading it. Its written by one of the Vineyard homeschooler, you know who you are! Still don't understand why you don't wanna let people know you wrote it la! Its so well written! Do you guys think so? If you do, drop a comment! Thanks, Enjoy!

: The Promise :

Sometimes when you feel that your sins have consumed you,
and there's no way to break free from all the torment it's causing you,
there's a verse in the bible that says "I will never leave you nor forsake you".
whose this man we all question?
whose this man in which loving us is His only intention?
that man's name is Jesus Christ.
He gave His life for a sacrifice.
For only His perfect life could suffice.
He was nailed to a cross broken and bloodied,
Yet He thought of you even through the things you did.
slowly He was tortured, nailed on the cross for your heavenly part.
He could have asked angels to save Him, yet from His sufferings He did not depart.
Slowly as the life ebbed from His crushed body,
He shouted His dying words.
"O Lord why hast Thou forsaken me".
And with that, He lay His head down and departed.
The Saviour, whose life had been given to all those who wanted.
Did the story end there? NO!
death could not contain him.
for in three days He rose again
He met with his desciples before He went home again
but before He went He gve His disciples one thing-
the Holy Spirit to help us with our new being,
if you accept that Man and believe His story.
you will go to heaven, to that place He's making for you eternally.

Sunday, January 08, 2006

Sun, 08 Jan 2006 17:52:46 GMT

Some of the pics taken during the holidays

Alex and Vernon!

Matt!

Christmas preparation on Christmas eve.

Dawn with the guitar! Staring at?...

Santa Low Tee Yao

Pas. Ronnie and Jm...

V2 Christmas group photo

This is what happened on my table during the Christmas lunch...

The other table...

Bluffer Lionel and Bluffer Jm =)

Same bluffer with the older bluffer, Kenny...XD

This is what you'll normally see at Genting Highlands

Night view of KL from Genting Highlands.

Genting Highlands =)

Tj and friends...hahaha.

Was playing Mafia, that was how I sleep in the game... XD

The Gang Green Bros...hahaha, me and my bro.

Tuesday, January 03, 2006

Tue, 03 Jan 2006 20:18:57 GMT

: 2006 :

1st January 2006, I've made a commitment to God that no matter what it takes in the days to come, I'll still serve Him, no matter what. This year's watchnight camp wasn't as fun as last year's cause we only have one night there, but the service was just great, the presence of God was so powerful! Even it was just a time of prayer, I could feel God's presence so strongly that I couldn't hold my tears but let it flow out of my eyes. And the testimonies that the church shared, about what God has done in 2005, they've blessed me so much!

Left Golden Sands Baptist at about 1+, and reach home at bout 4. Immediately after unpacking, I followed mum to the cemetary to pay my auntie a visit. When we were at my auntie's grave, looking at her photo on the tomb stone, it just reminded me of the days that my auntie was still around. This auntie of mine, she's one of the greatest person and mentor in my life. She took care of me and my siblings since we were little, to her we were like her children cause she doesn't have any. Whenever we needed her, she's always there. My auntie, she's a really humble person. She lives a very simple life even though she's consider wealthy. She spent most of her money on others instead of herself. And one thing that I admire about her is that, she helps without complaining, she always helps willingly. And I remembered she told me that, its good to help others and when you help, don't complain, your rewards will be in Heaven. She has been a GREAT blessing and influence in my life, and my family as well. Even though at times, I took her for granted and being rebellious to her, her loves for me still remains the same, she shows a genuine love to just anyone in the family even my cousins! She passed away on the 1st of January 2001, because of cancer. Somehow, I just thank God that He took her home, I believe God saw that pain that she was going through so He took her home. Praise God that my auntie is now in paradise with Jesus! It has been 5 yrs since she left us, and still when I think of her, tears do flow from my eyes and regretting how I treated her when she was still around. I miss her so so so much! One lesson that I've learned here, never take a person for granted when he/she's still around, you never know what's gonna happen tomorrow. Love each other around you when you still have the chance.

After that we went over to UKM to visit Sandra and Shirley's grandma who has admitted to the hospital few days ago. Mum was just chit-chatting with her, and I was beside listening to their conversations. Suddenly she just started sharing her testimonies, and I enjoyed them so much. By listening to those testimonies, I just felt joy in me and joy that I know such a great and awesome God! When we were walking out UKM, passed by some of the patient rooms, watching the patient lying down on their beds, some in pain and some seem so lonely. These people just touched my heart, hard to explain that kind the feeling that I was having but I really have passion for these people, to get them saved and let them experience God before anything happen to them. This year, V2's planning to start a hospital ministry! Its a good chance! Hahahaha....

Wednesday, December 28, 2005

Wed, 28 Dec 2005 18:26:01 GMT

: Christmas Day :

Christmas Day! Whuuuu, my favourite day of the year! On Christmas day morning, around 5 sth a.m I was having tea with Joe at the mamak stall. He told me what happened at Bukit Bintang when the Christmas countdown was going on. He said crowd just went crazy throwing cans at each other and throwing the cans to the cars which caused most of the cars got danted and even glass broken, he said that place was just crazy! People fighting, getting drunk and all. Even the police couldn't control the crowd. The police came, and the crowd started throwing cans at them and the police went off. When I heard that, Don't know why, I just felt pretty upset. I questioned myself, Isn't Christmas about our Lord Jesus? But the fact is, the world is getting from bad to worse...people are getting more and more wild and violent. To them, Christmas is basicly about Party! Clubbing! Countdown! Hanging out with friends! But do they actually know what is the real meaning of Christmas? Christmas is the birthday of our Lord Jesus Christ! He was born to be the Saviour! To save you and me from the fire of hell. He came to earth as a man, to suffer a painful death on the cross just for our sins! I wonder how many of us still remember that.

After having tea with Joe, got home at about 6:00 a.m, wrote my previous post ( Hahaha, weird leh? post so early in the morning) then got myself prepared to go to FGA for their Christmas service. Was my 2nd time watching their Christmas play, and I still enjoyed it! Haha... A very big round of applause to those who were involved! ( If only you are reading this ) After the play, we gotta sneak out of the hall back to Vineyard church cause its already 9+, so gotta go back to get things set up and all. Well, our Christmas skit, hahahaha... to be honest I wasn't really satisfied with myself, cause I suddenly went blank and forgot my lines when I got on stage, so I gotta say whatever that was in my mind. Hahaha...somemore I was the character that's sharing the real message about Christmas to the crowd...arrggghhh. I really hope they understand what I said la. But the others that were involved in the skit, they did a very good job! Esp Tee Juan a.k.a Mr. Bean, hehehee...( If you're reading this ). On that day, a few people responded to the message that was shared! Praise God!! another few souls added into the kingdom of God!!

Got alot of Christmas presents this year, including those that I received in FGA and those that I received on saturday. Seriously, I was touched! Like I said in my previous post, even though some of the presents are just little little things, but they can really bring tears to my eyes, if you read my previous post. I'm so blessed that I have a church family, not because of the presents they gave me but the love that they showed to me. I just wanna say a BIG thank you to all those who gave me the presents and notes, and even those who didn't give me...I love you guys! Aishiteru! =)

Okay, I got testimony to share here. The other night, I went to FGA for their Christmas performance, and this pastor was sharing something about spending Christmas with your family. That time I felt quite dissapointed knowing that my family won't be around for Christmas, they will be going Genting on Christmas eve, and I'll be homealone for 3 days. So on Christmas eve that day, my cousin Lionel suddenly called me up and asked if I wanna follow him to Genting on Christmas day, he said his dad could fetch us there. That time I was like! Wow!! Sure!! Thank God!! Hahahahah!! And guess what, I not only spent Christmas with my family in Genting but my relatives as well!! A bigger family! Whuuuu...God works in ways which we cannot see eh?!? Hahaha...Had a GREAT time with my family members in Genting. Esp hanging out with my two monkey cousins, Lionel and Kenny, after such a long long time! They are known as the " Bluffers ", so we call each other Bluffers! Hahaha, Lame? Cannot blame us la, we started calling each other bluffer when we were little, so kids abit lame one la...hahahaha! =)

So that was Christmas for me.

Saturday, December 24, 2005

Sat, 24 Dec 2005 21:05:59 GMT

: Christmas Eve :

Woke at about 8 a.m today, took my bath got myself all dressed up and went for breakfast with my dad! Seldom got a chance to eat breakfast with him, cause most of time either he'll be busy or I'll be in church. Even though it was kindda rush but we had a good time together la. Thank God for that! =)

Well, spent half the day at church doing the props, all the finishing ups, and having full dressed rehearsals for tomorrow's Christmas service. It has been great working with the youths, always enjoy working together in a group. Cause I believe when we work together, when we have unity, our relationship with each other grows stronger! And as we grow stronger TOGETHER, hahahaha its almost impossible for Satan to even break us apart. It's like millions of ants standing up TOGETHER against the hoppers, like what you saw in the show " A Bug's Life ". So Christ said in His word, let MY churches be in unity, He didn't say let " the " churches be in unity; but he said let " MY " churches be in unity. That's why we need each other to grow, we are all brothers and sisters in Christ Jesus! =)

Hahaha, Christmas presents! I received two of them today, and even though they are just small gifts, but small gifts like these can really overflow your eyes with tears. Maybe that's me la =) All my life, I haven't been receiving or giving any Christmas presents before. Till last year, my first Christmas presents were given to me by my church family. When I received the presents, tears almost filled my eyes. They were my first Christmas presents!! Yeah, I was really touched and I really thank God for blessing me with a church family. Not because they gave me Christmas presents, but by showing love to me and being there for me whenever I needed them. I can just be myself and not putting a mask whenever I'm with them.

I guess one of mankind's greatest need is love, acceptance! Not any kind of love but a genuine love! I once felt that no one loves me, I just don't find any love that people showed to me, that was why my life was in a messed. I wasn't a happy child that time, I was frustrated over alot of things. I got criticism and insults from the people around me, making fun of who I was, and those words that people said about me just left wounds in my heart. I felt no love, no acceptance at all! People take me for granted! I wasn't happy for who I am because of what people said about me, I hated myself. But when I got to know about God's love, and accepting His love, I found healing. I no longer dwell in the pains and sorrows that I was in. God took away the chains that once chained me to the ground and set me free. He sent me a church family where I can find love and acceptance. So, you see... Love from God and love from people turned my life around. What they want is just love, a genuine love. John 13: 34-35 says, " A new command I give you: Love one another. As I have loved you, so you must love one another. By this ALL men will know that you are MY disciples, if you LOVE one another." Friends, God wants us to use our lives as a blessing and an influence to the people around us. And by showing them love, we are actually showing them God's love. I know its hard to really love EVERYBODY around us, some people you really feel like stranggling them one! haha! But, we gotta at least give it a try. Think of the good side of that person instead of the person's bad side. We gotta see what the person has done good than what he has done wrong. Its easier to accept and to love people that way. =) That's what my mum always tells me la. Hehehehe... I hope what I just post can really help you guys to accept and to love a person easier... Cause its 6 in the morning, I don't really know what I'm writting also, hahahaha...forgive me. I'll be posting my testimony about how God changed my life real soon...hope you'll drop by and read la...hehehe...

Monday, December 19, 2005

Mon, 19 Dec 2005 17:24:23 GMT

: HUGE 2005 :

HUGE 2005! This was the first time I joined HUGE camp, and to me this camp was good! I did enjoyed myself. Heard that last yr HUGE was good, so I guess this year's wasn't as good as last year's. BUT, Good or Not?!?! It doesn't matter, Our God is still the same! No matter which camp it is, the God that we are worshipping is still the same true and living God which is Christ Jesus! The presence of God among the youths in HUGE was just incredible! I'm really blessed by just seeing ppl falling on their knees, tears flowing from their eyes, shouting and singing praises to God; and by seeing how God touch lives! Whuuuu, its just one amazing scene!

First Day, we met up at Puduraya to take public transport to Malacca. Never like going that place, all kinds of people are there and that place's just dirty, strong smell of the buses' exhaust. Sometimes I just pity those people who work there la. Anyways, Got on a Transnational bus. Quite a comfortable bus but the driver's wild and fierce, we got scolded just because we got on the bus and didnt sit down immediately, hahaha...! So, off we went at 1:30pm. On the way to Malacca, I noticed there's this small note at the front of the bus that says something like this " Berdoalah kepada Allah, Semoga perjalanan yang selamat " something like that. So funny thoughts just came into my mind. I was thinking, what if I used a marker pen change the " Allah " word into Jesus!?! hahaha, you imagine what would have happened to me la... We arrived at Puteri Resort around 3 sth. First thing we did when we got into our room was " chor dai di " hahahaha...for the sake of killing time. After that, took my bath and went down to the conference hall for briefing. First night's concert, like others said...good! Funny but powerful message by Pas. Clement Wong about Not Being Ashame Of the Gospel! He showed us a short clip about Bible, and this guy was rapping about the Bible, quite a cool clip! hehehe... Before the session ended, Pas. Julie Khoo shared with us a vision that she saw during the altar call that night. She said, she saw 3 groups of young people in front of this fountain. The first group thinks they are unworthy; second group is thirsty, and the third group is a group that is really tired, tired of what they are doing, and wanted to give up alot of times. But God's saying to this three groups of people; come, come back to Me, come to the fountain, no matter what. And somehow, I felt I'm like the first and second group. Felt unworthy and yet I'm hungry for God, I want more of Him! So that vision that Pas. Julie shared really encouraged me alot! And yeah! A few non-believers responded, accepted Christ on that night! Whuuuu!! Praise God!

Second day, The morning session's worship was lead by GRYP...Whuuu, good worship! I was blessed! hahahaha... And here comes the Camp Speaker- Pas. Chad Jacobson from the States. Well, I didn't really understand his messages, cuz he's one guy that does alot of actions in his preaching, so...hehehe, I didn't really get it. But at least can get the main point of his whole sermon la. XD. It rained in the afternoon, so all the activities have to be postponed to later... grrrrr, spoiled my basketball match with Charis people. Spent the rest of the time sleeping in the room till Leon called me up, and reminded me that it was DAWN'S BAPTISM, and they are all at the pool side waiting for me! Whuuu...quickly got up, get dressed and rushed down to the pool. Congrats Dawn, so happy for you la! You are now baptised in water, and also in the Spirit!! whuu!! Congrats, Congrats!! * If you're reading this * I'm still waiting for my dad's approval for my baptism, and I believe that day's gonna be soon! Second night's concert, Another great night... again the presence of God was so powerful! I believe everyone's touched by the presence of God!

Third day, after lunch, I went back to the room and sleep AGAIN. Woke up at about 4 sth and went to the car park to join the ladies for some volleyball. Hahaha, me, Lynn, Leon, and Eng were trying to break a record of hitting the ball 15 times and not letting it fall to the ground. May sound easy to the volleyball players, but we are not volleyball players...so...fahamlah? Finally, our record was 19 times! Hahahaha!! Not bad eh?!?! After that we headed to the pool side. Was talking to Hazel and Mayxim by the pool side and suddenly the guys from V2 just grabbed hold of me, and pushed me into the pool without realizing that my handphone was in my pocket. So Hp + H20 = ??... hahahaha. I've forgotten that my handphone was in my pocket too, so its nobody's fault! It was kindda fun though! Thank God for Dawn, she willingly lend her 2nd phone to me, thanks so much Dawn! Got myself dried up and when I was about to go back to my room for bath, cuz V2 committees are having meeting at 6pm. Karl pulled me into the pool again! hahaha..! So gotta get myself dry up again. The 3rd concert...which is the best! I think la! Pas. Chad Jacobson again...shared a message bout not letting go of God until He blesses you. It was a good message, it challenged alot of us to take a step of faith and being closer with God. During the altar call, after Pas. Ronnie has prayed for me...I was really filled with the Spirit of God, so I don't want to just keep it to myself so I went around praying for people as well. Whuuuu... as I was praying for this guy, suddenly he just started shaking and after that he broke into tears! I was like, whoaaa...is my prayer poweful or wat?!? BUT NO!!! Its not that my prayer was powerful or not, my prayer wasnt powerful, its just a normal prayer...and honestly I'm not good in praying. But its the power of God within me! So don't be afraid of doing things for God, there's a power of God within all of us!! I still remember Pas. Martin said this in APYAC few years back, he said " if you dare to do the ridiculous, God will dare to do the IMPOSSIBLE!" Yeah, 3rd night's altar call was just awesome, and after that we were just singing praise songs and jumping around praising God! After the session, as I was walking out from the hall, Karl, Keith, Alex, and a few other guys started singing Birthday song to me along with V2! hahahhaa...and Leon gave me a Birthday baptism AGAIN! Like what we did to Dawn at Re.Move....Hahahaha, Yeah...it was a really happy night for me! Thanks so much!! * If you guys are reading this *

Fourth Day, Final day of HUGE. Alot of people got sick on that day due to the unclean food or water, not so sure. Could be the water. Alot of them couldn't come for the last session, so the hall was like quite empty at the back. After the message, there was a prayer tunnel! Whuuuu...whoever walked through that tunnel, came out a different person! Most of them got slained half way through the tunnel and the altar workers had a hard time carrying the slained people. I hurt my arm when one guy fell on my arms, but its worth the pain! haha! After the prayer tunnel, rushed back to the room to get all my stuffs packed...gave the room a final look and went meet up at the lobby. At around 2 sth, we left the resort to the Malacca bus station to catch a bus back to KL.

That was what happened in HUGE 2005, God has been tremendously planting more and more seeds into the lives of His children...so lets expect more great things to happen in HUGE 2006 alright?!?!

Monday, December 19, 2005

Mon, 19 Dec 2005 14:39:15 GMT

Finally first post! Hahaha... okie, I decided to start blogging mainly is to share my testimonies online. Sharing about what God has done in my life and just whatever that we can praise God about! Hopefully the testimonies that I'm about to share can encourage those who are weak or even touch lives?! hehe, Maybe a little about my daily life also la, depends whether I hav the mood to post or not la! so...hehehe, do drop by as much as you can la! Thanks!